It has recently become real to me the fact that, despite all my efforts, I am still and while on this earth always will be, a sinner in need of Gods endless grace…

This is a fact of being human. No matter what we do, no matter who we are, we are still no where near Gods idea of “good enough” and seeing as how perfection is the only acceptable version of life in his eyes I doubt that any of us will ever be.

But, seeing that Christ lived fully as man on Earth and was able to be blameless and without sin for the entirety of his life here, it seems within believability that there must be a point in faith that sin becomes nothing more than a temptation which is quickly beaten away by Gods presence and holiness in your life.

I always seem to have the excuse after I do something knowingly wrong that “Oh, im just human, it happens”.  Looking at that response now, i wonder why i would ever imagine that as being a reasonable thing to say to prove “I’m really not that bad”

Not that bad?  What does that even mean?  In Gods eyes all sins are equal, which honestly seems odd to me.  If I were God (Which everyone should be very grateful that I’m not) it seems that I would put things such as murder and hate crimes towards the top, while leaving things like “white lies” and inappropriate jokes down towards the bottom of my “things you must not do” list.  But the fact is that, as impossible as it is for me to understand it, God does view every sin equal.

I guess now looking at my life, with this idea in my mind, i realize that so often I justify what I do based on my own holiness without the thought of God in mind.  If I truly want to live for Him, doesn’t it just make sense to stop giving in? Yeah it might be hard sometimes, but if Jesus could do it, I have no reason not to do it myself.

To quote a hero of mine “Do or do not, there is no try”  - Jedi Master Yoda